Well, I've had an... interesting morning. My Nan's been down from Sydney this week, to try out a Respite room at the Willowbrook hostel. Today was her seventh day there, and Rob and I went to visit her for the first time. It's kind of hard to know what to make of it, really. It's a lovely place, with really nice people,
lovely rooms and a beautiful view out the windows. Nan is very happy there, and it's so much safer than having living by herself at Sylvania. But it also means that she doesn't need to think about anything, and without the constant workout, her memory has decreased dramatically over the last few days.
And I saw a horrible thing, too. while we were talking to her, we kept hearing a knocking coming from somewhere. As we were leaving, I saw that the room she's staying in is right next tot he dementia ward, blocked off from the rest of the hostel by a large, frosted glass door. Behind the door, the silowette of a little old lady could be seen, hands up against the glass, knocking, wanting to be let out.
While Mum was talking to the manager, she was offered one of two rooms that would be becoming pernamently available next week. Which is all rather sudden for Nan, and for the rest of us, too. It is a great comfort, though, to know that there is a place for her to be looked after, and looked after well, better than we could do at home, that's really close by.
I don't quite know what to think, though. I'm happy for her, but sad at the same time- she has to leave the area she grew up in, friends she's had more than half her life and her home, the beaches around Sydney, the little flat down at Cronulla, to come and live in a small room near a bunch of slightly insane/deaf/forgetful/boring old people, but where she can be looked after in the way that she really needs to be.
anyway. that was my morning. I think I'll go and finish reading Mort.